ROMANTICISM It is to Emerson I have turned now, damp February, for he has written of the moral harmony of nature. The key to every man is his thought. But Emerson, half angel, suffers his dear Ellen dying only half consoled that her lungs shall no more be torn nor her head scalded by blood, nor her whole life suffer from the warfare between the force & delicacy of her soul & the weakness of her frame...March the 29th, 1832, of an evening strange with dreaming, he scribbles "I visited Ellen's tomb & & opened the coffin." --Emerson looking in, clutching his key. Months of hard freeze have ruptured the wild fields of Ohio, and burdock is standing as if stunned by persistent cold wind or leaning over, as from rough breath. I have brought my little one, bundled and dear, to the lonely place to let her run, hoary whiskers, wild fescue, cracks widened along the ground hard from a winter drought. I have come out for the first time in weeks still full of fever, insomnia-fogged, to track flags of breath where she's dying to vanish on the hillsides of bramble and burr. The seasonal birds--scruff cardinal, one or two sparrows, something with yellow-- scatter in their small explosions of ice. Emerson, gentle mourner, would be pleased by the physical crunch of the ground, damp from the melt, shaped by the shape of his boot, that half of him who loved the Dunscore heath too rocky to cultivate, covered thick with heather, gnarled hawthorn, the yellow furze not far from Carlyle's homestead where they strolled, --that half of him for whom nature was thought. Kate has found things to deepen her horror for evenings to come, a deer carcass tunnelled by slugs, drilled, and abandoned, a bundle of bone shards, hoof and hide, hidden by thick bramble, or the bramble itself enough to collapse her dreams, braided like rope, blood- colored, blood-barbed, tangled as Medusa. What does she see when she looks at such things? I do not know what is wrong with me that my body has erupted, system by system, sick unto itself. I do not know what I have done, nor what she thinks when she turns toward her ill father. How did Emerson behold of his Ellen, un- embalmed face falling in, of her white hands? Dreams & and beasts are two keys by which we are to find out the secrets of our own natures. Half angel, Emerson wrestles all night with his journal, the awful natural fact of Ellen's death, which must have been deeper sacrifice than a sacrament. Where has she gone now, wholse laughter comes down like light snow on the beautiful hills? Perhpas it is the world that is the matter... --His other half worried by the wording.